it's a mystical bond between man and machine

Thursday, February 21, 2008 | 10:17 PM

exclude me as usual. fine, you do as you see fit and leave me out.

is working with me impossible? will it kill you? you see me as selfish and 'wth', but have you ever thought of what you do, how it makes me feel? yes? bullshit.

asking around is like wasting my time literally. asking you as well, i have come to learn. i offer a group with myself, and you just look to ignore it without hurting me directly. yeah, it's easy for you to say, that you are so.. NOBLE, and all that. nonsense.

you feel pressurized, what rubbish. when i attack, you try and hide, cower away, avoid the topic. what's wrong with you?

you always have to be undecided. even if you really want a group with someone else, you can tell me can't you?

i don't want you to read this and feel guilty or what.. absolute crap and then claim you are okay to work with me. that's not the point. rather, i want you, and anyone else, to realise that you are not exactly doing me a favour. think for others, can you? you have a brain, and reasonable IQ, you can think for yourself can't you?

if you still just think for yourself, then i guess that's that. this has been futile, i apologise for making you waste your time reading this. but there is a glimmer of hope within me, that you will come to realise what you have been doing (or rather what you have NOT) to me for the past 1 year +.

thank you and have a nice day ahead.